Hi ABD
The healing is a given. It really is only a matter of time before you are pain free - you just don't know it yet.
I've had chronic back pain for over 15 years. Sciatica and sensations down both legs and butts. Numb feet and tingling toes and fingers. I have been relatively pain free for the past 6 months (after discovering TMS). Yes, the occasional low level ache and sensations still visit now and then. But no flare ups.
Like you, I'm on the structured program with the aim of eventually ridding myself of any remnants of TMS.
Be patient, don't be anxious and learn to let go. Follow Louise Hay's recommendations and recite:
I release the pattern and need to be anxious
I release the pattern and need to be fearful
I release the pattern and need to ....
God (or the universe) created you for greater things than to be crippled by fear, anxiety, depression and pain.
Be gentle on yourself and if at all possible, laugh at your pain and your subconscious because it's been found out. You are much stronger than you consciously think you are. Thank your subconscious for helping you (by diverting your attention with pain). Then tell your subconscious that you're all good and strong enough to experience the repressed emotions. The diversion strategy is not needed and will not work anymore (because its been found out).
Try catching yourself festering on your back pain. Once you're consciously aware of yourself festering (like looking at your festering self as a separate entity) ask yourself how is the festering working for you? Is all that focus and attention in any way alleviating your pain? Are you better, same or worst?
Like a small child crying over spilt milk, is continuous crying going to un-spill the milk? what does the continuous crying reflect about the child? how can the child resolve this and stop crying?
Keep calm and move on. Trust the TMS program and if not, trust the rest of us. We all started where you currently are. We did the necessary time and eventually we got the pay out.
Be patient because being pain free is much closer than you think.
eD