Day 1

Hello everyone. I started feeling pain back in May when I was training for a marathon, taking care of a sick dog, studying for finals, trying to take care of a house, do all the cleaning and cooking, worry about finances, etc. I left a stressful job a year ago to pursue a new career which left me feeling that I need to be the one to take care of the household while my hard working husband pays the bills. Let me just say my personality matches all if not every type of personality listed in all the TMS reference materials. Running is my passion. For being an avid runner for nearly 10 years, it was my escape to put me in my happy place each day where I felt i could tackle anything thrown my way. When I first started experiencing pain, I didn't stop running for a few months. By July, I couldn't stand the pain anymore and tried swimming. No matter what form of exercise I tried, the pain would not subside. By August, it was time to go on vacation and the pain was still around, but by the time it had moved from my hamstring into my back and down to my foot. The 12 hour drive each way killed me and needed excessive pain-killers and salonpas patches all over my body to help me survive the drive. I couldn't stand it any longer and decided to go to see an Orthopaedic specialist. I had X-rays done while there and was confirmed that there was nothing wrong structurally. I was diagnosed with ITB syndrome and Piriformis Syndrome. I was sent to a Physical Therapist who told me my source of pain was due to my rotated pelvis and that it is causing my piriformis to hurt and cause the stretching of my hamstring and bothering my sciatic nerves. Like most, I keep going for treatment, would have a really good week feeling like I was healed and then have the placebo effect. I would wake up in pain every night at 2am and sleeping more than 3 hours a night was like Christmas. My mother bought me a kindle since I was mostly bedridden and I began to research informational books on my condition. I spent this past Saturday and Sunday reading both of Sarno's Books - The Mind Body prescription and Healing back pain. I was amazed that my condition is TMS. I have been practicing the steps mentioned in the book and yelling at the pain when it comes on and it seriously is gone. I am not afraid anymore and know I will beat this. It's crazy how your mind can be your enemy. I am looking forward to continuing this program and love reading articles and success stories. They are truly empowering!

 

Hi, jdc9112. You're on your way to healing the back pain and any other symptoms. The Structured Education Program will lead you through steps
in healing. You've gotten medics to look you over and they couldn't find anything structurally wrong, so it's repressed emotions and the emotional stresses you underwent. Journaling will help lead you to discover the anger that causes your pain. That worked for me. I journaled about boyhood anger that I realized I had been repressing all my life and I'm 84 now. I began to understand that my parents and older brother who caused me to be stressed
had their own TMS repressed emotions. That better understanding led me to forgive them and that led me to heal from the back pain.

Your mother did you a wondeerful favor by giving you the kindle so you read the Sarno books. You might also want to get the kindle edition of a book I wrote with Herbie (Eric Watson), another TMSWiki member, called God Does Not Want You to Be in Pain. It offers many TMS healing techniques as well as his and my personal journeys that led to our healing. We add asking the Lord's help in healing but do not insist on it.

Good luck and keep us posted about your healing progress.

 

Hi Walt - Thank you so much for your reply. I started journalizing this morning and plan on continuing to do so throughout this recovery period. I finished Pathways to Pain Relief yesterday and started God Does Not Want You to Be In Pain last night. I have very deep Christian beliefs so I feel this book will be a perfect addition into my memory collection for TMS. I am looking forward to continuing the Education Program and am already feeling much relief simply by not being afraid of the things I was told never to do. Thanks again and look forward keeping in touch!

 

Hi, jdc. I'm so glad you are finding relief in your symptoms through the SEP and reading. I'm especially glad
that you are reading my book with Herbie (Eric Watson) with its emphasis on faith. Your deep Christian beliefs will be a big part of your healing and over-all good spiritual health.

Our subconsious sends our Inner Bully to give us fear, and does that so we will practice TMS healing techniques, one of the best of which is journaling. Discover the repressed emotions that cause repressed anger.

Keep up the great work!