Hi Winter,
I am just reading your thread, I am sorry you are experiencing such pain and anxiety, you are only human and it wouldn't be natural if you didn't feel these. I think we all live such fast paced lives we tend to put our emotions on the back burner and deal with the next traumatic event life poses - without even acknowledging, understanding and processing the information in the moment. . It's a human fault which we all have, so don't be so hard on yourself. The beauty of TMS knowledge is that you are now in the drivers seat and with knowledge and determination you can and will overcome any symptom you have. I too, hope to beat mine.
I respect and admire you for joining the forum , take time in getting to know the inner you, what hurts you and why and perhaps, if you are not already doing so, take up some mindful meditation to help you break down any anxiety you may feel.
Please stay committed, focussed and be gentle to yourself at all times- find, whatever hurt you, embrace it, understand it and process it and may you have a lifetime of good health.
God bless,
Mike