Here I am. Filled with hope and just starting to learn how to fight off the fear feelings of "It works for all these other people, but it won't work for you" and "You will always have this pain" I have had chronic pelvic pain for 13 months now, the same amount of time since my daughter was born. After the initial pain of childbirth subsided, I was left with a nagging pelvic pain that has sent me in a downward spiral. I am thankful for my healthy baby girl and overall, my health throughout pregnancy and the delivery. But I went through a lot during that time with external factors and was also going through a rough post partum depression along with everything. Of course, you are supposed to be over the moon with happiness after you bring a baby home - that talking about how depressed you are still ins't acceptable in society, so I put on a happy face and buried all of that inside of me. Doctors diagnosed me with a UTI (antibiotics), overactive bladder (medication), low estrogen (estrogen cream) and when none of that worked, I went to two pelvic floor physical therapists. That helped some. I had a light bulb moment when my most recent PT, was releasing tension in my pelvic floor when I was overcome with emotion and started crying. She mentioned to me that she would like to continue to work on releasing tension in my muscles through expressing emotion. That had never occurred to me, but it totally makes sense. That led me to finding this site and the plan. Just learning about everything has taken the edge off of the pain. It is still there, but we are working on it. Thanks to everyone who shares their success, it means so much to someone just starting out. That real people with real pain have had success. I vow, that WHEN I make it full success for myself, that I will continue to share my story and support others that have just begun.