Day 1

Over twenty years ago, I recovered from fibromyalgia, using the mind-body connections. However, through the years I've dealt with increasing back pain, joint pain, migraines...well, you know. So obviously, now I know that the muscle pain just shifted to other ailments and disabilities. I've had some actual illness that were not mind-body, but the pain and disability (what makes me check out of life and hole up at home) are TMS.

I thought I had dealt with anger and grief from childhood abuse, but years of therapy did not help enough.

I continued to visit my parents, feeling under pressure to do so, even when I know it made me overeat and hurt all over...but I tried to believe that I was a loving and forgiving person and could handle participating in the illusion of a happy family.

Well, now that I am feeling emotions in my body instead of intellectualizing it all, wow, it hurts, but the hurts don't scare me now. Thank you body for trying to take care of my wounded soul, but now you can relax and know that I am finally listening. We are going to be okay.

 

Hi, KLB. You have reached a wonderful state of acceptance and are definitely now going to be okay.

The actress Kate Winslet ("Titanic") has some good thoughts to share on mothers...
I think it applies to both mothers and fathers...

“Every woman has a mother, and every woman will have an issue with that mother and things that mother did or didn’t do. It just depends on how you
choose to process the lessons that you learned from your own mother.”

 

So sorry for your family issues, KLB. I'm glad you've made your way here. I believe this is a place of healing and encouragement. Blessings on your journey.

 

Hi Walt and Gigi. Thanks for your greetings and encouragement. It helps.