What would a life without TMS mean to you? Well this is my third round with the SEP and I never finished the first two times. I got maybe almost half way through then stopped. To be honest both times I did improve greatly and just figured I didn't need to finish. I'm starting to see I was scratching the surface but not getting in deep enough to make permanent change. I stopped the second time close to half way through and was starting to deal with some mental issues at the time. My physical pain was quickly replaced with terrifying panic attacks and fear, sickness, depression ana lot of other psychological issues. My pain started in July of 2013 in my hands and it went away in August of 2015. After working through some of my anxiety the pain returned in the beginning of November and it's still here. I don't want to get into every detail right now but i will as time passes. So to officially answer the question. The first two times I answered I basically just said it would be great and it would give me my life back. I would be Able to do all the things I loved. This is true but I feel like there is a deeper answer now. It's not just about getting back to old activities. It's also about reconciling past and present issues. It's about understanding and accepting myself for who I am on a deeper level.