Hi everyone, I am thrilled to be posting here. After a year battling back pain and enduring the ridiculousness of our health care system I finally feel hopeful. I found Dr Sarno's book a couple of weeks ago and, like all of you, saw myself on every page. This year has been the most stressful of my life not including the back pain. Almost exactly a year ago, my beloved Doberman, my best friend and my constant source of stability and comfort passed away. I was and still am devastated. About two weeks after I lost her I woke up to excruciating back pain and could not stand or walk. I thought I had dealt with the loss, but I am coming to find that I am very much still angry and sad. Also uncovering a slew of other emotional issues. So many it's hard to pick one to concentrate on. I knew I had anxiety, I have been on antidepressants and Xanax for years, but I had no idea that my mind was stockpiling emotions until the last couple of weeks. As I was reading Healing Back Pain, my pain got a little better. But in the last few days my pain has flared up. I'm at about an 7/10 right now. Just telling myself that the pain will not control me and that it will go away. I still feel doubt, though intellectually I believe that TMS is at play, I still can't help but wonder about my two herniated discs and I am incredibly afraid that I will make the pain worse. All things to work through. I'm so happy to have found the SEP, I was disappointed that I wasn't cured by reading the book. But now understand after reading through the forums that this will be a process. Thank you so much for reading my post. I feel so grateful to have a community of people who can relate. I don't feel so alone in my pain. Here's to Day One!