In following the Educational Program, I am writing a post on where I am in my treatment. I have new pain between my shoulder blades that is quite strong and is present in most things I do. It started just a few weeks ago and it is completely new. I have a resurgence of eczema between two of my fingers (webbed part) and only there; I used to get it on other fingers, but since it disappeared years ago, I hadn't had it at all, and now it has taken a bit of an abode there and it is itchy and burns very often, even waking me at night (very frustrating). Off and on I have a small red rash on the rim of my nostrils of all places, which I used to think was an allergy to a certain brand of tissues, and now I know better; this also comes and goes. I've had rosacea since my teens, which recently I've found from Steven Ozanich (The Great Pain Deception) is also an equivalent. And I have pain in the joints of my hands, which is possibly the beginning of arthritis but, as I understand it, does not necessarily have to cause pain so this could also be TMS. A few years back I suffered a great anxiety attack that left me afraid of a repeat episode, and I suffered from feelings of panic, on and off daily, for two years afterwards. Only recently I have worked through this (yay!) and seem to be in a good place with anxiety ... at least the conscious part of anxiety. Being a people-pleaser, I have learned on this forum that I am avoiding anxiety when I people please, so obviously I have unconscious anxiety or fear for sure. What originally brought me to TMS was sciatic pain. I had it for years and went to doctors thinking there was something wrong with my lower back, or kidneys, since that's where the pain seemed to come from. It started only at night and I had to sleep with straight legs to make the pain stop and could continue sleeping. Then it started bothering me during the day, and it got worse and worse till it started affecting me going up stairs, bending over, etc. That's when I picked up a copy of Healing Back Pain by Dr. Sarno. Just reading the book helped me address the sciatic pain, and I got rid of 95% of it. It acts up now and again, but I talk to it, or re-read parts of the book and I'm good. But lately, new bodily issues have come up and I'm upset that I'm having a resurgence of TMS (which probably adds to my anger reservoir and makes things worse!). The top 3 TMS symptoms I am feeling overwhelmed by are my hand pain, the eczema itchiness between fingers, and the pain between my shoulder blades. I was confused that these have come about just recently because I am a teacher and have just ended the school year, so I thought I should be pretty calm and relaxed now that holidays are here. But the eczema between my fingers and the pain between my shoulder blades grew to be quite bad, especially the eczema which kept me up at night. And I lost focus of the TMS techniques and started to try to make it all go away. The more I tried, the harder it got, and I spiraled into despair and fear that I would not be able to stop TMS this time. Of course, there have also been some family issues where I believe I have been putting too much pressure on myself, and this coincided with the end of the teaching year hustle and bustle. Finding this forum has renewed my hope and has reminded me that "trying" only makes things worse, and that treating myself well and investing time in my self-care are key. I've read countless posts of support between members, and many success stories, and it is very heartening. I am very hopeful to start this program. I am a hundred percent believer in TMS and accept fully that I have TMS. I am a total believer.