I'm 67 years old and I feel very limited and depressed because I've been in almost constant pain for close to six years. This isn't my first encounter with TMS. In late 2009, I discovered Dr. Sarno's books and devoured three of them within a couple of weeks. I had been struggling with low back pain (severe stenosis) for over two years and I had tried everything except the recommended surgery. I could see that my lifelong pattern of pain and other physical issues was rooted in my emotions. I started journaling and filled out some forms I found online that helped me see the connections. I am a perfectionist and a people pleaser and I am angry. But then I stopped doing the work. I had and still do have fear about digging into my anger and where that could lead me, even though I accept the TMS diagnosis. I'm still in pain, now with carpal tunnel syndrome in addition to my back. So I dusted off Dr. Sarno's books and revisited TMS on Google where I discovered this Wiki a week ago. Yesterday a doctor told me I should have surgery for CTS, but I don't even want to consider that. So, here I am, starting Day 1. I hope that having a structure and feedback will keep me going this time. Rather than diving in and scaring myself, I want to slow down and follow this program one day at a time.