I am a new member and this is my first post, and my first day on the educational program. I came across TMS and Sarno about two weeks ago and have since read Healing Back Pain and The Divided Mind. I have also watched his lecture on YouTube twice. The second day of learning about TMS I felt so good that I thought I was "cured". I thought I was going to be one of those miracle stories of someone who reads the book once and is symptom free. Since then the pain has made a comeback, but each day I improve in some degree. First, some background. In June 2011 I was 30yrs old and heard a "pop" while golfing. I was told I had a herniated disc and this was causing me pain in my right leg with sciatica down to my foot. I went through 11 months of excruciating pain and my whole body shifted to the right and I hobbled around. I tried in the following order: chiropractor, massage, physio, traction, electric shock, acupuncture. Eventually I elected for a microdisectomy surgery which I got in May 2012. I felt instantly cured after the surgery. I got into shape and ran a half marathon in 2014 and was running 150kms a month. In 2015 I underwent some big changes. A divorce, a move to a new house and shared custody of my six year old son, uncertainty with my company, a new girlfriend pregnant and a scare with the pregnancy. All of this occurred within a six month period. Somehow I made it through all of this and about two weeks living in a new house, I was quite suddenly stricken with left leg pain and sciatica and lower back pain - a pain I knew all too well. I attributed the pain to the recent move - lifting boxes and furniture, and to a fall I had playing hockey a month earlier. My doctor gave me painkillers and I went and saw a chiropractor who wanted me to sign up for 20 sessions of spinal decompression. After the third session, I was laying on the floor reading stuff online and came across Sarno. Two days later I was able to drive with ZERO pain, something I wasn't able to do for the last month. I felt cured. But it didn't last. The pain would come and go. But I was convinced I have TMS, from childhood issues, my personality, and my current life stresses. A day later I made a miraculous return to ice hockey. But I only felt about 35% healthy. Nonetheless, the fat that I could gather my hockey gear, put it in the car, drive to the arena and carry my 60lb bag over 100meters across a giant parking lot and get my gear on and play about five shifts was encouraging. Considering that four days earlier I was unable to even get off the floor and use the bathroom without a huge effort and extreme pain. Since then, I've been reading and journaling and today marks my first day on the actual TMS wiki program. I have noticed several times in the last week I will feel really good. Able to now wake up in the morning with no pain. But as soon as an stand still for too long or sit down to a meal, it comes back. I've started going for long walks with music to have time to myself in my head. I've walked a 2k, a 3k and a 5k walk in heavy snow the last week and felt good. But then this weekend I tried walking 1km with my son and felt horrible and had a spasm. This morning I went on the ice to coach my kid's hockey practise. This was a lot easier than me playing in my competitive league so I realized I was probably pushing it too much last week, and I get more comfortable with just a light skate with the kids. I'm 34 and know I have TMS and know I have the tools now to overcome it. I will report back in a few more days.