Well I'm back after having had 8 or 9 months with ever diminishing pain (RSI in both arms) for most of that time. Of late I've experienced new pain in my left wrist which is becoming increasingly debilitating. It had been wonderful to be gaining my physical independence back earlier in the year but quite devastating to suddenly find myself spiralling back into the pain cycle, with all the loss of function that accompanies it. I only realized it was probably tms again the other day after several physical therapy treatments that have not helped much, except to lower my bank account! So here I am again, still dealing with the old issues of being an obsessive perfectionist always seeking approval from others, and sometimes using tbe pain to get out of things i dont want to do (not sure how that fits in with tms but i am ashamed to admit i have done this and I'm sure its relevant). I've recently been studying a painting course (supposed to be for fun!) but I've found myself stressing out about it, pushing myself beyond reasonable expectations, dropping many other activities, and absolutely beating myself up when i dont reach my own ridiculously high standards. If someone says they like my work, i dont believe them and usually make some self deprecating comment. Whew...i actually hadnt realised all that till i just started writing here.... Anyway, i plan to work thru the SEP again and am quite heartened to find several familiar names back here, it feels like calling in to visit some supportive friends. Bless you all for sharing your personal journeys...its a great gift and one that i really appreciate.