I was away for three weeks and had many excuses for not continuing with my TMS program, but now I'm back. There's overwhelming evidence that my pain is caused by my subconscious "protecting" me from unwanted feelings and during the day I can stop my pain pretty instantaneously by telling my brain,"Stop It! Send Blood!" and imagining that I'm smashing the big claw clamped down on my painful body part. I then feel the blood and oxygen flow and my body unclenches and the pain releases. I had both knees replaced a year ago due to bone-on-bone arthritis ("real"? - I don't know) and still cannot sleep on my side or stomach due to pain on both sides and tops of both knees and bilateral hip bursitis. If I do sleep on my stomach or back, the pain wakes me up, I'm in its grip again, and I don't seem to be able to yell loudly enough to stop it. Surgically mutilated tissues should be healed by now, so I've accepted that my brain is causing my pain, but I have to work on ways to release the pain when I'm barely awake. Just want it to go away!