[write a short post about the level of acceptance you have of the TMS diagnosis, and of any doubts or worries you may have at this point.]
I just watched the 20/20 video, which I came across earlier when researching Dr. Sarno, and read the success story. I'm probably 95% accepting of the diagnosis, now that I have spent a few weeks journaling, reading about TMS and looking back on the past year. The lingering 5% doubt is probably because I did have a slightly abnormal reading in the EMG/NCS study. But it was only one point off, in the nerve that connects to C5/C6. I do have that herniated disk, but I'm not worried about that now.
So I can write all this, but still not get to the emotional and mental stuff. Focusing on the pain is such an ingrained habit now. Thank God my friend remembered that I had neck pain as a very young child. When she said that, I couldn't remember it, but it felt familiar. She also remembered me getting dizzy and having headaches. The dizziness I do remember. It was stressful to be an emotional young girl with a mercurial, alcoholic father.
Today I experimented with Alan Gordon's idea of outcome independence and not tying pain levels to how I feel about my day. I moved forward on revising a big chunk of my novel and guess what, when sitting at the computer, I actually let myself slouch instead of obsessing about perfect posture.
Oh dear, so much for a short post...signing off now.
I just watched the 20/20 video, which I came across earlier when researching Dr. Sarno, and read the success story. I'm probably 95% accepting of the diagnosis, now that I have spent a few weeks journaling, reading about TMS and looking back on the past year. The lingering 5% doubt is probably because I did have a slightly abnormal reading in the EMG/NCS study. But it was only one point off, in the nerve that connects to C5/C6. I do have that herniated disk, but I'm not worried about that now.
So I can write all this, but still not get to the emotional and mental stuff. Focusing on the pain is such an ingrained habit now. Thank God my friend remembered that I had neck pain as a very young child. When she said that, I couldn't remember it, but it felt familiar. She also remembered me getting dizzy and having headaches. The dizziness I do remember. It was stressful to be an emotional young girl with a mercurial, alcoholic father.
Today I experimented with Alan Gordon's idea of outcome independence and not tying pain levels to how I feel about my day. I moved forward on revising a big chunk of my novel and guess what, when sitting at the computer, I actually let myself slouch instead of obsessing about perfect posture.
Oh dear, so much for a short post...signing off now.
