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Day 1 - 4

Discussion in 'Structured Educational Program' started by Joey7, Jun 2, 2016.

  1. Joey7

    Joey7 New Member

    Hi everyone, so i started the SEP on Monday the 30th and today is my 4th day. I read Sarno's healing back pain about 2 weeks ago and have been working on myself and journalling a lot since then, but only just found this programme on Monday and jumped right in. I have been suffering lower back, and savage sciatica since October last year, was diagnosed as 2 herniated discs but after reading about TMS all the signs point to that (i do still have my doubts though and really wish i could let go of them as i dont want that to be the reason i'm not 100% pain free YET).

    I can definitely see some changes, such as being able to walk with less pain and further as well, sometimes building up the courage to jog (but only for like 2 minutes because i am so un-fit atm - haven't done any vigorous exercise since about October), and when i do it hurts at first but then i can feel the pain "seeping" out, and this clearly hasn't made me worse because if it was going to...it would have by now, so i take that as a good sign. I have also been trying to be less neurotic when it comes to how i sit, sleep (no longer with a pillow) and bend.

    I have been working a lot on my repressed emotions and have unlocked quite a lot of feelings, such as a HUGE feeling on inadequacy and the feeling that i am no where near as good as everybody else (in every aspect). Anger and envy towards my older sibling who seems to have everything together: friends, intelligent with a prestigious uni degree, a good job, healthy body, good looking, he's even going on holiday this summer with his best mate, (yes he is a boy btw, but the envious feelings are just as strong as if i had a pretty thin popular big sister). I also have A LOT of work to do with my body image and how i see myself inside and out, I've had these feelings all my life but developing an eating disorder when i was 16 in 2012 and even struggling today, definitely turned those feelings and thoughts up to 11. So yes i am still putting the pieces back together from that but i have come a long way and i am proud.

    I hope that posting on this forum will help me feel less alone in how i feel right now, it has been the worst few months of my life and after struggling with other things in my teenage years i didn't think anything could trump that (but that is human nature of course - you don't realise what you've got till it's gone), anyway i know that i have found a safe place to share parts of myself where people will really understand what we have all gone through whether it be years or months and i hope i can also help people too.

    Thanks for taking the time to read this, if you stuck around that long.
    See you all for day 5 :D
     
  2. Gigi

    Gigi Well known member

    Welcome, Joey!
    Congrats on the success you've had. Glad to hear you're making progress with the SEP.
    I've recovered from TMS twice--once for back pain in the early '90s, and once for horrible foot pain in 2011-13. I feel like the SEP gave me my life back.
    Blessings on your journey.
     
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  3. Walt Oleksy

    Walt Oleksy Beloved Grand Eagle

    Hi, Joey. Try not to let your "inner bully" talk you into feeling you are not as good as anyone else.

    I suggest you watch some of the videos on self esteem that I've found on Youtube. This one is especially good, but there are others:

     
  4. Joey7

    Joey7 New Member

    Thank you Walt, you're right that video is excellent, i have checked out a few others and they have helped me to see that for too long i have let my inner bully make me feel less than everyone else. This is the one thing that has made me feel thankful for TMS, that i have finally opened my eyes to how i beat myself up and treat myself which also affects how i treat others. But thanks to TMS i may finally feel good about myself and life and therefore embrace my loved ones much more.
     
  5. Joey7

    Joey7 New Member

    Thanks Gigi, I can definitely feel the effects, not just the physical pain that is beginning to diminish but also through how i am finally learning to treat my life as what it really is, an amazing and complicated experience, which i should appreciate much more than i have been doing the past few years.
     

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