When was the last time you exercised or did another physical activity? What was this activity? How did it make you feel physically and emotionally? If it is has been a while since you last exercised, why? The last time I exercised a lot was probably a month or so ago. 30 mile flat bike ride. Biking is something I used to love, and still do, but it is miserable now. mentally and physically. Once I had the ride planned, all I think about is how it is going to hurt, and how I'll be sore the next days after and in pain while I was riding. I can ride flat paths with a level of pain that I can push through. but it isn't ideal. I want to be able to ride where ever I want. Mountains, hills, any surface. So it makes me sad when I'm riding the same flat path. It hurts. And when it hurts my main emotion is defeat and sadness because I think "this is it, this is all I'll ever be able to do, I won't ever get to do the things I want to do because if this flat trail hurts my back, anything harder than this will be excruciatingly painful. And I can't do this often because I need days to recover and if I do this regularly, I'll be in constant pain" (which when I used to push myself and ride 5x a week the pain got so bad I stopped for years. The pain took the joy out of the things I loved and took away my hope for a happy future. Because for me a I envisioned being happy = being able to do the things I love. Anytime I am in pain when I bike or hike I just think about all the things I wanted to do physically in the future that I will never be able to accomplish. (now I am hopeful, but those were my thoughts before starting). I had planned my whole future on being "disabled".