Day 9..... Symptoms come and go. I am used to ignore it, except for the instability. I yell myself for this. It is much difficult to have self compassion. I handled everything in my life like it is a race. No mercy for my self. Working, struggling for everything, trying to satisfy almost everybody, trying to be the best, the perfect, always seeking for something better, always questioning if I am good enough. For my parents, my friends, my little son, my siblings, my boss... It was a matter of time to reach this point. It is an eulogy and a curse together. Will I be able to change my way of thinking? Even doing this program, I find myself trying to put me a degree. My inner buly says: Were you good enough applying the program? Are you a good student? Will you be able to overcome it? I am astonished about how much critical I am about my self. Anybody who feels the same? Anybody who managed to overcome this?