Constant symptoms.. anyone else?

[colls100]

Hi guys,

I started feeling dizzy, unbalanced and having vision problems about 8 years ago. I then developed terrible daily headaches.

I was put on an anti-depressant which really helped. I thought I was better and stopped taking it. And everything returned 10x worse.

I went back on the anti-depressant 3 years ago and it got me back to being able to function, work, socialise. But all the time I still have this vague dizziness, problems with vision and daily tension in my head (can't describe it really as a headache but it's very bothersome)

I am constantly tired, never wake up refreshed, feel like my vision is hazy and generally feel dizzy and unbalanced. I was getting on with life putting up with it all and had given up trying to find an answer when I developed carpal tunnel symptoms.

It was during this period that I found Sarno, because my pain kept moving and made no sense to me.

I eliminated 90% of the wrist pain simply by reading the book but now the dizziness and headaches are worse than ever, as is the tiredness. I also have pretty bad anxiety at the moment too.

I think I am now convinced that it's all been TMS from the beginning, but my awareness is now focused on it more and my brain is probably amping up the dizziness because I managed to get rid of the hand pain.

I still take anti-depressants and worry that they have changed my brain so much that it will hinder the TMS process, I don't know why I think this, I just do.

My biggest issue by far is the CONSTANT NATURE of the dizziness and hazy feeling. I read alot on here about 'when back pain flares up' and I can't relate to ever having a break from symptoms at all in the last few years. Can anyone else relate to this? Is there anyone who has had this constant unrelenting dizziness rather than simply dizzy spells?

I am working through the SEP, meditating daily and have been listening to Claire weekes

And I do feel like my confidence and tools for coping and getting through the fear and panic are growing, I've had some much calmer days and feel better in myself BUT the relentless nature of the symptoms is hard for me to deal with.

Anyone experienced similar?

 

[Baseball65]

what happened in your life 8 years ago that triggered the symptom imperative?

"And I do feel like my confidence and tools for coping and getting through the fear and panic are growing, I've had some much calmer days and feel better in myself BUT the relentless nature of the symptoms is hard for me to deal with. "

Most of the times I get symptoms I am 'coping' just fine. And then I go and grab a pen and paper and go through personal relationships, work, play, my GF or partner, my family and find out I have been 'coping' by having symptoms.

You've been doing this long enough you ought to have some 20/20 retrospectives. I know that most of the little outbreaks I get have to do with responsibility, rage and fear....every time something has ever 'happened' I was 'coping' with one of these just fine....until I couldn't stand the symptom anymore.

 

[colls100]

Hey @Baseball65

I know it was probably more of a rhetorical question but re what happened years ago - I never speak about it and tend to just say it was a traumatic time, but for the sake of dealing with my emotions rather than repressing everything. here goes -

I was 21 and my ex boyfriend sent a sex tape of us (I wasn't aware it was made) to my friends and some of my colleagues. About two weeks later I found out I was pregnant with a guy I was seeing at the time who happened to know my ex boyfriend. He didn't know about the tape but my ex was threatening to send it to him. Under the pressure of everything going on and for other reasons (my age, financial situation) it felt impossible for me to carry on with the pregnancy.

My best friend was pregnant at the time and when she found out I was going to terminate the pregnancy she called me a killer and said she couldn't believe I could do something like that. We resolved it but I've never forgotten it.

In the last 8 years since the symptoms started I've managed to carve out a pretty successful career in sales, but the pressure has always got to me.

I met someone 5 years ago, he turned out to be extremely verbally and sometimes physically abusive. I got engaged to him (despite all of this) but one year ago I decided to leave him.

I'm in a better place in life now having done this, but my symptoms aren't letting up.

I do journal and have tried to journal about all of the above, but working through it all seems an impossible task.

I feel a lot of shame for the choices I've made. And I feel like a lot of what has happened in my life is my fault.

for me there aren't outbreaks as such, just the same symptoms consistently for 8 years. And I don't tend to see a pattern - for example when I was with my ex I was going through so much emotionally but my symptoms didn't get worse, in fact they were better than they are now. Having said that maybe what was going on was something even my symptoms couldn't distract me from.

Im going to keep on journaling. Thanks for your advice as always

 

[colls100]

Hey @Baseball65

I know it was probably more of a rhetorical question but re what happened years ago - I never speak about it and tend to just say it was a traumatic time, but for the sake of dealing with my emotions rather than repressing everything. here goes -

I was 21 and my ex boyfriend sent a sex tape of us (I wasn't aware it was made) to my friends and some of my colleagues. About two weeks later I found out I was pregnant with a guy I was seeing at the time who happened to know my ex boyfriend. He didn't know about the tape but my ex was threatening to send it to him. Under the pressure of everything going on and for other reasons (my age, financial situation) it felt impossible for me to carry on with the pregnancy.

My best friend was pregnant at the time and when she found out I was going to terminate the pregnancy she called me a killer and said she couldn't believe I could do something like that. We resolved it but I've never forgotten it.

In the last 8 years since the symptoms started I've managed to carve out a pretty successful career in sales, but the pressure has always got to me.

I met someone 5 years ago, he turned out to be extremely verbally and sometimes physically abusive. I got engaged to him (despite all of this) but one year ago I decided to leave him.

I'm in a better place in life now having done this, but my symptoms aren't letting up.

I do journal and have tried to journal about all of the above, but working through it all seems an impossible task.

I feel a lot of shame for the choices I've made. And I feel like a lot of what has happened in my life is my fault.

for me there aren't outbreaks as such, just the same symptoms consistently for 8 years. And I don't tend to see a pattern - for example when I was with my ex I was going through so much emotionally but my symptoms didn't get worse, in fact they were better than they are now. Having said that maybe what was going on was something even my symptoms couldn't distract me from.

Im going to keep on journaling. Thanks for your advice as always