Hello everyone.. (and I'd like to extend my thanks for all the kind replies to my posts over the past week... The support and knowing I'm not alone makes ALL the difference.) My major problem at this point is waking up with horrible panic, anticipating panic and right along with it immediate mid back, rib pain when I move or even breathe deeply. I know I'm wildly tense because I can feel my abdominal muscles clench too. Then I walk hunched over which makes it hurt even more.. I've been to two drs and the ER with it and they all say it's musculoskeletal and one even said she felt a knot behind my ribs. The thing I find impossible to do is not be afraid of the pain. Last month, it was my low back for two months... It's just making me nuts, for lack of a better term. I just want to curl in a ball and cry.. Plus, the VERY unpleasant panic symptoms.. (upset stomach, shaking.. Etc..) I can't help thinking CURRENT stress or upset brings it on, not just repressed or historical traumatic events in my life, I just need some help. I'm scared this will be my life for good... Oh yeah, and the icing on the cake is my medical anxiety... I imagine my spine as made of tissue, inflexible prone to pain and injury at the slightest movement.. Discs weak and bulging.. ( as MRI shows and mild scoliosis, stenosis on one level) told by doctor "normal wear and tear... Doesn't stop the obssessive fear. I am in counseling too.. Not helping. Fear is in charge. I just don't know what to do anymore..