thanks to everyone whose replied to my other posts. I guess im still worrying whether i can undo my conditioning to expect and therefore have pain in certain positions/activities and whether I can uncover my repressed emotions as i seem to be having trouble doing this. I think it would be useful for me to cry more as although i often feel low i very rarely cry. Does anyone have ideas about how to cry. Do you think watching sad films could be useful or this the wrong approach as its not getting in touch with sadness about my own issues? thanks again.