Hi all, Is that time of the year again and once again i feel stressed. Its hard to exactly say why , its a combination of stuff. Its a bit suprising cause overall i had a much better year than the year before so me feeling down and stressed is a bit confusing. In fact i would be okay when januari would start tomorrow. Christmas should be a happy gathering with family but really it feels to me as pressure. My sister invited me and my husband and this was a big surprise cause we hardly get along. The only reason to accept will be the fact that my mother will be there too. Last year the whole christmas ‘thing’ ended in a fight and i spend christmas alone with my husband who i love and he was great : but i was upset and could not enjoy it. Between me and my sisters some sort of childish competition issues (we are all over 40) rise from time to time. And yes i have expressed some feelings in the past but that made things worse My mother has also a negative role it this all. So now i keep my teeth glenced and hope it will all past soon. At the same time i get angry at myself. And tell myself i should be gratefull my mom is still with us (and Ofcourse i am ) but the whole thing is draining me. Like i do not want to spend it with my family and also maybe not without. Talking about ‘the devided mind ‘ Can anyone relate to this ?