Day 12 Childhood Memories and General Progress

[Kiara]

I have many positive childhood memories, especially my dad taking me to a local bird aviary on a regular basis - as I really loved birds!! I also used to really enjoy dog showing and teaching my dog to do tricks. I even did dog dancing performances with my sheltie when I was around 11-12 years old! Haha.

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I admit that I've been feeling frustrated for the last three weeks, as I caught a virus and have been very unwell - much more than usual. Viruses are difficult to deal with because when I already have Chronic Fatigue Syndrome, they seem to tip me over the edge so I feel really down and depressed in those times.

I've started to improve today, so I went for a walk outside for the first time in over three weeks… and I felt overjoyed! I stood there in the sunshine and the breeze, and just lifted up my arms to feel the wind as it gave me such a sense of freedom. I don't like being housebound so much!! Argh!

It feels like a slow, plodding journey but I'm really trying to persevere and not give up. It's difficult because I realised recently that I've had the CFS for about a year now… and honestly I didn't realise it would take this long or be this hard. I thought I would recover in a few months. Now I want to keep a long term view of the situation, rather than expecting a sudden, overnight recovery.

 

[SunnyinFL]

I have many positive childhood memories, especially my dad taking me to a local bird aviary on a regular basis - as I really loved birds!! I also used to really enjoy dog showing and teaching my dog to do tricks. I even did dog dancing performances with my sheltie when I was around 11-12 years old! Haha.

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I admit that I've been feeling frustrated for the last three weeks, as I caught a virus and have been very unwell - much more than usual. Viruses are difficult to deal with because when I already have Chronic Fatigue Syndrome, they seem to tip me over the edge so I feel really down and depressed in those times.

I've started to improve today, so I went for a walk outside for the first time in over three weeks… and I felt overjoyed! I stood there in the sunshine and the breeze, and just lifted up my arms to feel the wind as it gave me such a sense of freedom. I don't like being housebound so much!! Argh!

It feels like a slow, plodding journey but I'm really trying to persevere and not give up. It's difficult because I realised recently that I've had the CFS for about a year now… and honestly I didn't realise it would take this long or be this hard. I thought I would recover in a few months. Now I want to keep a long term view of the situation, rather than expecting a sudden, overnight recovery.

Hi Laudisco,
It made me smile to read about the things that make you feel good. I hope you can return to that beautiful image of the sun and feeling a nice breeze, with your arms to the wind, as a source of comfort. I think it's great that it sounds like you are starting to give yourself a break. Please don't give up - I can tell you're learning a lot. And, please know that for many of us this is a life-long journey. You probably already know that pressuring yourself to recover is likely to back fire. Please be kind and compassionate with yourself instead! Good luck, Sunny

 

[Kiara]

Thanks so much Sunny! I appreciate all your kind and supportive words.

 

[SunnyinFL]

You're welcome, Laudisco! You've got a whole community here that is supporting you - so, please keep reaching out as you continue your journey and keep us posted! More importantly, please try to be kind and supportive to your self, Sunny

 

[Walt Oleksy (RIP 2021)]

Hi, Laudisco. It's wonderful that you got outside and enjoyed the sunshine. Try to do that every day.