Hey everyone. It's weird to think that it has been a week since I have been on the forums. I posted for the first time last week about thinking I might have TMS and all of you were really supportive and I really appreciate all of that. At that time, i was getting ready to go and visit Dr. Gwodz in Somerset NJ who is a TMS specialist. Well I had that appointment and he said that he is 99.9% sure I have TMS and can't say 100% since he is a doctor and has to leave some room for any possibility. Basically said all of my pains are due to the stressors in my life last year, along with my personality and childhood issues. If anyone has the chance to go and see him I would highly recommend it. I spent about 90 minutes with him for a consultation and it was covered by my insurance. I will be attending a 2 hour lecture that he will be doing in 2 weeks to go over things in more detail. And starting next week he feels strongly about me seeing a psychologist named Dr. Chan who was trained by Sarno's psychologist. Although I have a current psychologist, he wanted me to switch over at least for a few months to see someone speciliazied in TMS, esp3ecially given the amount of issues that I have physically and mentally. He did say that he has a high confidence rate in my recovery and I already had a phone conversation with Dr. Chan who said she never had a TMS patient she didn't cure. SO that made me feel good. He told me to stop going to physical therapy and start focusing on the psychological. He told me to junk my trigger point books and research efforts on the internet and stop the constant stretching for stiff muscles. Stretching is fine before exercise as long as I'm not doing it to help with a broken body. It took some courage on my part to stop physical therapy. I asked him about trigger points and he said I had them but they are caused by the TMS. HE also said most doctors would say I have fibromyalgia which is TMS. It's funny because I'm most obsessed about my arms and hands due to my video gaming hobby and working at a computer. I decided to not restrict myself to a one hour gaming session and managed to game for two hours and three hours the past few nights. It was a bit uncomfortable but I forced myself to face my fear. I also have been pounded with snow storms here in the North East and have forced myself to shovel and telling myself my back is fine and not to worry. I am pretty sore but did alot of shoveling without too much pain. Today I'm really anxious for some reason, but I'm trying to remind myself of the TMS and not focus on teh pain. The one thing I will say is that I have hope right now which is good. And I'm starting to at least face my fears a little bit. I'm very thankful and blessed for that. Thank you guys for your support.