Day 20 changing one thing

So I wrote a thing that was pretty raw. I decided to take it down but I can't figure out how to delete it so it is just this message instead.

 

Hi mirepoix,
Welcome to the forum! Do you mean that you posted something on the forum, but then decided you wanted to take it down? I didn't see a prior message. Please know that all of us access some very raw feelings, too; you will get a lot of understanding and support from the forum. But, if you did post something and want it to be taken down, you can try to contact the administrator of the Web site - go to the home page and click contact us. There is an email address and a contact form. Or, you can go back to the posting you want to delete and click on "Report" and fill in the message box with your request. I hope this is of some help.

 

Thank you for your response,

Yes I meant that I posted an honest journal entry I originally wrote just for me from the SEP. The journal exercises always say "post to the forum if you're comfortable" and I usually ignore it but I for some reason wanted to post this one. It was just really angry and negative. I've just been frustrated by my pain lately and the process I've been going through with doctors to sort it out.

Maybe I'll clean it up and bit and repost it.

 

Hi Mirepoix,

Did you have any other questions? Or, had you already figured out how to delete it?

Please know that it is fine to just listen to your gut and follow your instincts. There isn't any "right" or "wrong" feeling. You stated that you wanted to post it, so maybe you just got scared afterward? Please know that almost all of us have been raised to be "nice" and "good" and haven't been allowed to share our "bad" feelings growing up. I was just reading this morning about the importance of allowing ALL of your feelings in order to be a whole and healthy human being. After all, all humans have anger and rage and fury and negative emotions. Further, this whole community can relate to frustrations with pain and doctors. I myself had a horrific experience with a specialist who told me "you won't get better without surgery." That scared me a lot, and I later found out that he lied straight to my face about my MRI report - lots of anger and rage ensued! Nonetheless, doctors have a lot of power and we tend to believe what they tell us. Now I've wisened up and know it's important to do your own homework, check and double check, and take a support person to all of your appointments (I usually take my daughter and she takes complete notes on everything the doc says - it has been invaluable).

I hope this is of some help, but please feel free to follow up if you have any questions!

 

Hi, Moirpoix. No problem posting with anger. It's okay and we all understand.

You may need a morale booster regarding the SEP program. Here is a good one on how it does work and heal.

Kevin healed 95 % from SEP


Welcome to the SEP and to the path of recovery. I am on my final two days of the program and I can say with complete confidence that I am a changed man. I started after 6 months of nasty low-back/butt/leg pain, could hardly walk, stand, etc. was in physical therapy, chiropractor, acupuncture, pain medications, etc.. the usual. My MRI showed 3 disk bulges/herniations touching nerves, so that is what I believe it to be....that is until I read Dr. Sarno and found this site.

I encourage you to really get involved, follow the instructions, do the journaling, take time to read all the suggested readings, and watch the videos. I'd say I'm 95% cured. There is still some very light lingering "annoyance", but I still have some work to do. I've been walking miles with hardly any pain these last few weeks. But even more, if the pain comes on now, it just doesn't bother me like it used to, I sorta just see it, acknowledge it, and go about my business. It took working the program to get to that point, but 6 weeks compared to 6 months is nothing! I made more progress in the first week than I did from two months of PT!!! It's going to challenge you and your "beliefs" in medicine, but you have nothing to lose. We generally wind up here when all else fails.

So give it a shot, especially before considering anything invasive like surgery. If you put the work in, you will get better. Have you read Dr. Sarno yet? I assume you have since you're here, but in case you haven't, definitely read Healing Back Pain. Again, it will challenge everything you've believed about your pain, and backs in general. You'll be encouraged to resume life as normal, i.e. stop ALL "therapies" (PT, chiro, etc.), stop taking medications, and most importantly, stop thinking STRUCTURAL problems are the cause of your pain and shift to psychological as the reason.....again, this can be difficult and takes some time to sink in, so be patient and kind to yourself.

It was a process for me. A few of the bigger moves in my case were: I ripped up and threw out my MRI test results (I found myself obsessively reading over them and comparing them to other results I could find on the web and even here on the TMSwiki site...); I got back to the gym and stopped using a weight belt; and I even cancelled an appointment I had made with a TMS doctor because it was more than a month away and it was hindering my recovery (that is, my 100% belief in TMS was lagging because I had this pending appointment, but as soon as I cancelled it, my recovery sped up significantly). Everyone's journey is unique to their situation, but I've found that really committing to the program and brining what I learn from it into my daily life has had profound results. Also, sharing along the way here in these forums has been extremely helpful - there's something about knowing that you're not alone in your TMS recovery that really helps. I encourage you to look through my past posts for some insight into my experience with SEP. Like I said, I'm just now finishing, tomorrow is my final day, and I feel like a changed person. It's amazing. And I feel as though it is something that one carries on with, not just like a one time 6 week thing and that's that...it has helped me to get to know myself and taught me tools to "deal" with my emotions. Learning and accepting TMS is a life changer for sure.