Today I am asked to review what changes have happened to me since starting the PPD. Well, there have been a few....some subtle, some less so. The GOOD. I have learned to attend to my thoughts - as much as I can. (The thoughts repeat themselves a lot.) I divert to thinking about emotional issues when I feel more pain coming on - and I can reduce that pain significantly by realising what's going on. I have recognised "people pleasing" tendencies - and said "no" - once in a major way, and there was fallout with others. I am dealing with the anxiety that came by doing this. I have challenged one or two things people have said to me, that previously I would have interpreted as hurtful - and the world did not collapse. I am sleeping much better. When I notice tension in by back I relax and come into "now". The pain is often down to 4/10, and that's FANTASTIC! Having decided to put more creativity into life, I am getting rolling on making it happen. Exercise is now a very high priority in my day. The UNSORTED I sometimes wonder how much Non-TMS people of my age get tired and struggle towards the end of the day - what is "normal" and what can be attributed to unresolved anxiety etc. I am a bit bored of journaling, but realise I probably haven't touched on about 6 personality traits, and 10 things on my list. In the back of my head - or maybe my unconscious? - I think I may be avoiding something, but I don't know what it is! I have not yet thrown away the painkillers, but I'm not using them as much as before the PPD.