So, things are a lot better today. At the suggestion of a lovely forum member, I became reacquainted with the work of Louise Hay. I read her many years ago as a teenager, but had the pleasure of watching her video and rereading her book. I think I have become unstuck....big realisation that this process is all about loving myself, approving of myself, feeling worthy, and being kind to myself. I have cried bucketloads today...some of it is gratitude for realising what was behind my back ache, some of it was past hurt and sorrow and anger that just has been bubbling to the surface for a while now. The level of pain has dramatically decreased too. So, now I feel better about continuing with the SEP. And, Walt, I really have appreciated all your help and encouragement along the way...it has really made all the difference. My lovely husband is wonderfully supportive, but as he grew up in a very loving family and has led a fairly charmed life, sometimes he cannot quite conceive of what I am going through. As far as todays topic is concerned, a lot of my anxiety,probably most of it is career focussed. I have gone through a period where I achieved a lot, and received a promotion. Then the back ache hit, we left for summer holidays, and I have been terrified about being able to do the job with the physical stuff that happened. Now, I am being more sanguine about it...just saying well, I am not worrying about it, but taking it one step at a time. My recovery is what is important.