Honestly,
@mikeinlondon
Your mind is simply running in circles. One week it’s x symptom the next it is yz symptom, you have disbelief and need assurance it’s TMS.
Not everything is TMS but the only way to rule that out is to be checked by your Dr. so they can determine “nothing is wrong” which we can’t do for you.. or… you can open your mind to more “what if’s”.
Right now all your what if’s are dire. But what if this is just TMS? What then? (And I’m sure your brain has the bits right now saying “but what if it’s not”).
This is where you decide. To take the leap of faith and trust, knowing that some days you’ll have doubts but be willing to just sit with the daily doubt and work for the long term wellness.
You listen to Helmut and Sam.. the talk about the long term. The choices, commitment to self, the willingness not to be perfect in this journey, to stick with it, to doubt and fear and just sit with those emotions and thoughts. To allow and not struggle or fight the process.
There were days I would be so anxious I sweat (and smelled horribly), had panic attacks, hid in the dark…but I knew that the next day could be better because there were simply too many success stories for this method to be wrong.
I stopped stopped searching symptom matching. Nobody ever had the combination of crazy symptoms I had (I heard Sam mention two of my wildest symptoms that she also experienced recently). It’s all the nervous system trying to get back into regulation and flow - it’s all TMS.
You are experiencing a pretty strong set of symptoms so when more come, they are just going to be even scarier for a bit. Anxiety will do that to you, it’s a safety mechanism.
Here is a big hug to say you will be OK. I feel awful for the torture your brain is putting you through, but when you began to see the sleep symptoms as TMS your brain zapped you with another set of symptoms that are hard to ignore. That is exactly how TMS can manifest in some people.
Eventually the mind begins to accept the idea of TMS over time, your job is to teach it. Right now it’s like a two year old screaming “no! No! I don’t wanna!!!!” And we all know the best way to calm a 2 year old is to just sit with it and let the tantrum run its course. Let it feel all the rage, sadness, confusion, fear etc and just be with it, and let it all out.
You don’t need to believe to do the work. You just need to stop searching for other answers.