I've just finished day 8. I've been stuck on this day for a while trying to write someone a letter. I wasn't able to get past the thinking to the feeling and was finally able to today and I learned that I have a lot of pressure to be a good example. I remember being told in jr. high that I should be a standard for my friends to follow and that made sense to me and I was for a very long time. I'm realizing that I still feel that pressure 25 years later and that I also feel like I'm failing in almost every way. I often think, if I can't do this right, then how can I help anyone else? This is a big revelation to me because I knew that I put pressure on myself but I didn't know I felt guilty and sad for not helping everyone around me as well. It seems quite fitting that my pain started in my shoulders as I've been carrying around a heavy burden. I'm looking forward to seeing the results of this new piece of the puzzle. I'm just now realizing that I should probably have an emotion towards the fact that I have this pressure in the first place but I'll get there.