Back Pain returned

So I’ve claimed victory over TMS back pain by far and large, right? Well things to change in the blink of an eye. Last night I was reading through The Divided Mind, going through the various tms patients and their testimonies. Some examples were people who were in back pain for as long as I’ve been live. I started imagining what that would be like - perpetual lifetime pain...in my back. Something that I thought I’ve put behind me. I started feeling incredibly anxious and uncomfortable. For some crazy reason, I started having irrational thoughts of fear of back pain, despite my current success and confidence over tms back pain. I was aware how ludicrous this was but couldn’t stop this fear from invading my mind. Within a minute or two I could feel my lower back start to ache, which made me panic a little more, which made my pain continue to escalate. Shows just how insanely quick the mind can change things, for better or worse. Old fears can always be reintroduced into the mind. Also an example of of how reading about TMS in some cases can actually TRIGGER IT! Still dealing with the back on and off today. It’s like my mind realizes “Oh, back pain’s on your mind again? Here’s my window of opportunity to strike again and distract you”. Sometimes it’s best not to occupy your mind with TMS at all!