Back pain returned after 7 years but swiftly sent packing

Back pain returned after 7 years but swiftly sent packing.
I have been free of back spasms for 7 years after reading Dr Sarno's books and doing the recovery programme on this site. Last week it came back and it was so bad that I could not even put my shoes and socks on. I immediately began to think about what might be troubling me. My first thought was that might have been triggered by seeing my 93 year old Aunt but as I went deeper I found that it it was something was unaware of consciously. Two weeks ago I found out my son has been riding a motor bike for the last ten years but hiding it from me. At the time of discovering this I was very understanding as I could seen that the deception came form him protecting me from fear and anxiety. I laughed and joked abut it with friends and was the understanding , good humoured parent who realises she can't control a grown up son . My brother was killed on a motor bike twenty years ago and years before that, so was my uncle. Once I faced the terrifying fear and horror of the thought of my son on a bike, I then felt horrible rage at him for doing this. As I acknowledged all this, the crippling back pain disappeared and also, the double vision that I have been experiencing recently went, as anger about other less dramatic stuff that have been repressing surfaced. I honestly did not have a clue about all my fear and anger before I sat down to think about what might be causing the pain to reappear.

 

Wow. What a story and a way to dig deeper on what your body is telling you. It just goes to show how we want to people please sometimes and it really backfires on us. Thank you for sharing your story.