I am not as concerned about back/hip pain. It comes and goes. The pain is being replaced with anxiety. Lots of self-criticism, and self hate. I hear some of the negative chatter that is fairly constant, and due to reading in this forum, am coming to understand that is what I'm doing in my thoughts. The anxiety is due to the perfectionist and people pleasing that I guess I believe "if I'm not perfect no one will like me". And I already think people won't like me and I haven't even done anything---perfect or not perfect. I get that anxiety is replacing the pain. (Along with insomnia , cold sore, sinus issues, head aches ) Doing the SEP program brings up a lot of emotions. Working on finding out who I am, after always trying to be what others want (like I could somehow read their minds) is where I want to go now, but at times the anxiety is in control. Thanks!