I’m glad I stumbled on this forum, found it by chance via someone else posting about TMS. I just joined about a week ago. I had a very unhappy fearful childhood. I was a sensitive child, a bed wetter, had daily thrashings from my Father for wetting. I peed my pants at school too but only in the very early years. I have never admitted this on an open forum! I grew up angry and fearful - my siblings abused me too both physically and mentally. My parents had a volatile relationship and they would argue openly in front of us. My Father was a heavy drinker but we were provided for. He used to torment me by telling me that I was found in a dustbin ( there’s 5 of us ) and he would do that until he made me cry. He seemed to enjoy it - I never ever found out why I was the butt of everyone’s anger or frustrations. I can remember I was a good child until I started to grow up and then I got angry. In retrospect I should have sought help a long time ago - I’m 61. This is just a brief synopsis of my early years. My older sister recently apologised to me for the way she treated me when we were kids. My present issue is backache - I was diagnosed with degenerative disc disease (L5 with an osteophyte) about 6 years ago and I’m an ex registered nurse. I’ve had chiropractic input in the past. Few weeks back I was in the car with my husband and we were coming down a steep hill when he braked suddenly. I was thrown forward then back with my seat belt on but not violently. I remember tensing up a lot and following morning I had backache, inflammation in my back and I then developed a strange numbness from my mid to lower back, in my buttocks and legs and feet. I still find it hard to sit without my buttocks going numb and I have shifting pain in my coccyx, lower back, upper back and strange cramping in my legs. My symptoms puzzle me greatly. I think I’m still holding onto a few emotions for being in the car that night with my husband.. I tend to be hyper vigilant. My husband and daughter say that I over react to the least things and I suppose I’ve become hyper vigilant. I’ve had a LOT of emotional trauma over the years, much too much to spew out on here and when I read about repressed anger etc I began to wonder if I have TMS - I’ve possibly been fearful my whole life. There are days when I think I have numbness all over. I touch my scalp, ears, abdomen, face etc and it’s like there is reduced sensation. I recently moved to Turkey to start a new life and so the health care here is very different. I have been for a lumbar mri and seen a neuro surgeon twice, he assured us there was no nerve involvement in my back as I was beginning to think the worst especially with the numbness. I’ve had my bloods screened. He said it was ‘muscular’. I’ve ended up with muscle rubs, NSAID’s and more recently an opiate based pain killer. I’m doubtful if there’s s TMS physician here. I’m working my way through the forum and it’s been an eye opener for me. Delighted to see so many success stories!