Back from Spain

Attending to your own needs. So very valid & important. What actions do you need to take to make sure your needs are being met in normal life? How do you identify your emotional & physical needs? Maybe journal about those things.

Knowing that you can let go of your anxieties is indeed powerful. This can be learned till it becomes a habit.

What other things should you let go of in order to heal. Be honest with yourself. Be brutally honest.

Don’t judge yourself.

Just be true & authentic.

You don’t have to tell us. Write it all down, get it off your chest.

Good luck ❤️

 

My goodness. I'm just...realizing everything right now.
That I've been afraid to move my body for years (for example, I feel anxiety when something falls on the floor, because I'll have to pick it up).
That I restrict my eating in an unhealthy way.
That I'm afraid of noises and people moving around me.
That I believe I'm exceptionally weak/endangered. That some doctors have fed this belief in me.

That actually I am normal and can behave normally.

I had a great day yesterday and last night the symptom imperative hit hard in one of its favorite ways -- head-to-toe pain. Often in my life I have interpreted this as, "See? Unlike everybody else, you can't do normal things. You'll have unbearable pain the next day!" Today realizing that it is partly because I am taking my kids to a field day today and my TMS brain does NOT want me to do it, or to do what I did yesterday.

But...I walked 75 miles on the Camino. How could it be possible that I couldn't take my kids to a field day?

It's not possible. Someone who can walk 15 miles per day many days on end can do anything.

Same thing with walks lately...been walking 3-5 miles daily and have been in MORE pain than after 15 on the Camino. What BS.