At my wits end, a gamer in need

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Even though I haven't started the SEP, I have noticed some improvement in my hands but now I still got a nagging back pain. When I was on that medicine I mentioned I think I pulled a muscle or something or tore something in my back and one of its side effects was bone/joint pain so I've tried to slowly resume physical activity but I've had to take a few pain killers cause I'm trying to start the SEP but part of me is still not convinced it's TMS..

What do I do now, I got hand pain somewhat still and a pulled muscle in my back that I've never pulled that could be brought on due to TMS.........

It seems I'm waking up each day with new pains

 

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This is not fun, but somehow no pain. Can't tell if this a bone or a tendon thing but no pain at all so who knows

 

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This is not fun, but somehow no pain. Can't tell if this a bone or a tendon thing but no pain at all so who knows

Does anybody know what this is

 

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Both of my middle fingers are stuck like this, there's no pain and I've been having to do some work but I can't tell if this TMS or not.


Ever since I read Healing Back Pain my body has been all out of wack, from shoulder and back pain.....to now this and I'm really nervous and scared

 

[Idearealist]

Always happy to see other gamers here, like your Hollow Knight profile pic! Just finished reading Healing Back Pain and i've realized during this pandemic, i was doing a lot of gaming, while it does usually make me happy, i've been using it as an escape and i've been letting issues with my family and personal struggles go untreated so i kept going back to gaming and using the computer as a save haven. In hindsight, i probably have overused my hands a bit too much but i wasn't breaking up all the gaming with other activities. I didn't work out at all, so i definitely feel sluggish and unmotivated despite the fact i lost weight during this whole pandemic.

I'm listening to some of my favorite music to try and reflect on some of the things in the book before i decide to go start journaling some stuff out as part of the SEP program.

I did notice after finishing the book, i was able to grasp the mouse on my computer better, as if some strength returned to my hand. The feeling didn't last too long but it was a good feeling that maybe im on the right track here. I can tell this won't be an easy program, got a lot to work out. Been putting off some important doctor visits too (not related to hand pain, but visits i should have kept up with more, may or may not be useful for TMS but they've been things on my to-do list that i've constantly put off.

Gonna try to be more active around here too, talking about stuff helps me a lot, im someone who has trouble opening up to others.

I started using gaming as an escape, too. I think a lot of people do, but it can be pretty unhealthy when overdone IMO. I'm actually thinking about quitting multiplayer games for a bit -- not for my hands, but because I do need to spend more time getting my shit together in real life.

 

[Hydrlysis]

I just want to add that calcification of tendons is a normal change in tendons that comes with using the tendon. It does not cause pain. Many people have calcification in their tendons and have no pain.

 

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I just want to add that calcification of tendons is a normal change in tendons that comes with using the tendon. It does not cause pain. Many people have calcification in their tendons and have no pain.

Good to know, i did add that bit in cause that person who got it could no longer use a Gamecube controller although now he has been using a controller of his design that's easier for him to use. Obviously its something a lot of gamers don't want to experience

 

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I've decided to return to this thread cause im pretty much back at my wit's end.....

The pain in my hands that I had originally which I seen a doctor for has gone away.....sorta. it's now manifested into my tendons in my hands being super tight and almost stiff to where gripping things feels almost awkward like I'm gonna drop it. I've posted pictures of what they look like.

My mom keeps telling me all the work I'm doing and the light computer use I still do caused my symptoms. When I was younger she would sometimes not let me go get anything checked out by doctors (even if nothing is wrong I'm the kinda person who likes to be sure nothing is wrong)

On top of all that I hit probably some of the worst depression I've ever experienced the past two weeks from different things.

I want to go back to the hand doctor and just see if he's willing to do any tests. I've read Sarno's books and I've tried to do some journaling but right now I just few awful and I don't know what to do. I'm on my own on this and I'm awful at doing things on my own

 

[Kiluah]

It sounds like you are not convinced the problem is TMS. Look at a site like the below, this asks some questions and gives you an idea if you could have TMS. You need to gather information to prove to yourself that "this is what it is".

https://www.danbuglio.com/paintest (Take the Pain Test — Dan Buglio - Your Pain Free Coach & TMS Expert)


Also his youtube channel is really good too https://www.youtube.com/c/PainFreeYou/

I was where you are, I had so much pain in my arms and hands I could not even type for 1 minute. I had back pain, shoulder pain, leg pain. I was depressed and even considered suicide. Now, a few months on I am playing the piano as much I want, playing games and typing. Hiking, golfing, the sky is the limit!

I don't say the above to gloat. I simply want to tell you that its possible to get better, but the first and most important step is to BELIEVE that you have TMS. Once you have done that, you can look at the journaling, feeling your feelings etc.

You can do it!

Brendan

 

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It sounds like you are not convinced the problem is TMS. Look at a site like the below, this asks some questions and gives you an idea if you could have TMS. You need to gather information to prove to yourself that "this is what it is".

https://www.danbuglio.com/paintest (Take the Pain Test — Dan Buglio - Your Pain Free Coach & TMS Expert)


Also his youtube channel is really good too https://www.youtube.com/c/PainFreeYou/

I was where you are, I had so much pain in my arms and hands I could not even type for 1 minute. I had back pain, shoulder pain, leg pain. I was depressed and even considered suicide. Now, a few months on I am playing the piano as much I want, playing games and typing. Hiking, golfing, the sky is the limit!

I don't say the above to gloat. I simply want to tell you that its possible to get better, but the first and most important step is to BELIEVE that you have TMS. Once you have done that, you can look at the journaling, feeling your feelings etc.

You can do it!

Brendan

It's mostly fear of doing things cause my middle fingers feel numb a lot and they have like no strength. But also depression kicked in a few weeks ago, and i just feel i have no interest in anything anymore. I don't know if it's COVID or just other things going on in my life, but nothing seems to interest me anymore. Even playing videogames, and playing golf, stuff i usually like doing just don't give me any feelings anymore. I am back working at a job, and i'll admit my mindset has improved, but only slightly. I still feel drained, and hopeless. It's not really about the pain anymore, im just down and depressed on everything. I stopped posting here cause i felt i was just complaining too much.

I really don't know what I'm gonna do going forward.