At age 10 moms death!

I have a question for anyone on this forum who delt with the loss of their parents at an early age and how did you deal with it? I was 10 years old when I lost my mother to Cancer, youngest of 4 siblings, I had a huge age difference between me and my siblings my older brother is 16 years older to me and the other sisters are 13 and 10 years older to me. So I have not been very emotionally close to them. I think we all delt with our mothers loss personally.
Now at the age of 34 I feel like a lot of my problems are associated with me not dealing with such a huge loss but then I think of me being 10years old and how can a 10 year old even process death. I feel like it’s something I need to face now. Please if anyone has any suggestions as to how to deal with this I would really appreciate it.

Thank you