Two things struck me in today's reading (bold added by me): Pandamonium's success story - "Whilst I hope for a 100% recovery, I expect that this will become a life long journey and that's a good thing; TMS symptoms remind me to do my emotional work which in turn promotes a healthy mind and body." Howard Schubiner's article - "Our bodies talk to us in their language. It's up to us to decode it. Unfortunately, its language is the only one it knows and it is often the language of pain. But pain is nature's way of alerting us to the fact that there is something wrong. It may be that we just stubbed our toe or placed a finger on a hot frying pan, or it may be that we are stuck in a difficult situation at work or in a relationship." My brain is trying to do me a favor. My subconscious has made a choice that I definitely wouldn't have made if it had checked with me first. But I can appreciate that my own mind has identified a problem that needs to be addressed. The resulting physical pain is pushing me to seek a solution. And while I wish I had saved the thousands of dollars and hundreds of hours I spent trying to treat the symptoms, maybe that whole path was necessary to reach a point now where I am actually addressing lifelong issues of insecurity, self-criticism, unhealthy reactions to stress, anxiety, perfectionism, etc. I might only be halfway through my time on earth. What a strange blessing to be forced by my body and mind to fix these issues now rather than go another 40+ years dealing with the challenges of life in unhealthy ways.