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  1. osca aelius

    osca aelius Peer Supporter

    Hello all, how are you guys doing? No matter how bad your current conditions, i hope all of you to stay strong and get your own lesson from suffering TMS. Quick explanation about me and about what i want to share. I already share about this in my previous post, but i will post it again here shortly :)

    I started developing anxiety disorder (not TMS) from 7 years ago. It felt so bad, everyday feels like hell and there is no hope. But with patience and knowledge from the internet, i managed to overcome it by myself and recover using Claire Weekes method. I was proud of myself for living free of anxiety again.

    Fast forward, i broke up with my ex like 3 years ago and started having my very first TMS symptoms, tinnitus. It scared me but i get used to tinnitus in no time. But after that, difficulty after difficulty keep coming. Up until now, im more certain that the symptoms i experience is truly TMS. Unlike anxiety which have certain symptoms, TMS symptoms range so much more diverse, which caused me to be confused all day long about why i feel the way i feel. My main symptoms are hyper focusing one some symptoms i feel on my body, especially my crotch. For some reason i dont know why, i also fear the symptoms, even though the symptoms are less unpleasant than the anxiety i experience a few years ago.

    Moreover, even some benign thoughts could cause me to be sensitized, for example im afraid i lose control of my sexual urge and hurt women, afraid of hurting myself, feel guilty because i think im not being a nice enough person (even though there are so many instance where i act too nicely and it backfire).

    Some days are good, i can deal and overcome all of my TMS symptoms, some days are bad where i feel hopeless and want to end my life. Even right now it feels pretty bad, i dont know what i fear and it feels so unpleasant. Hearing Alan talking is helping though, but i dont want to keep relying on him to feel good and to overcome TMS. I want to beat my TMS like i beat my old anxiety symptoms.

    Any advice is welcome, that's it guys :)

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