Most of you might be by now sick and tired of this thread. Me too! Today I had nausea from the time I got up in the morning. My doctor convinced me yesterday to follow the official guidelines. But today I thought: no, I want to have clarity. Is there something really dangerous going on or not. If not, I can be very patient and my guess is that it is TMS anyway. To make it short, I have an appointment with a doctor in a private hospital. If he thinks an MRI scan would be relevant he can do that. With the public system I first have to go through all the diagnostics that lies before that and it will take at least three months. It will cost me a small fortune, it I need to have clarity. This background anxiety makes it difficult to focus on my work. And it also makes it difficult to apply the TMS work. E.g. how to apply outcome indifference if you don’t know whether the symptoms are symptoms for something structurally going on. I just hope that this doctor is not a total jerk. I also thought of writing to Steve O if he has an opinion on that. But the bottom line is that no one can tell me whether I am having a structural illness without having the diagnostics done.