As I started working this program last week I thought I had processed all the rage from my early life. Last night at 2:00 am as I laid in bed in so much pain I wanted to jump up and scream and pound holes in the walls I realized I may be angry at my condition and lot in life. This condition has stolen everything I love to do, it has taken any possibility of a moments peace and being pain free, it makes work nearly impossible. We used to travel extensively and now I spend hours in bed suffering. I can hardly walk room to room much less hike, run, bike and all the things I love. I am also aware that my sensitive nervous system and anxiety has stolen most of my life and made everything difficult. Has anyone else become aware of this rage against the condition. And and could it be that this anger against the condition keeps it going...what to do? I know I need to write about it –anything else that you found helps.