Wow this journaling has really opened a can of worms for me. While some issues I have thought about from time to time, others I have repressed so much it's almost like they've just happened now that I'm writing them down. The most significant observations are that I have a lot of repressed rage, something I didn't think was an issue for me. I am the apologising goodist who would rather suffer than upset anyone or appear selfish. I also have a lot of guilt and shame towards myself for the situations I've gotten in to or caused, even though it's mostly been me they've affected. I need to stop chastising myself because what's done is done, seems harder to forgive myself than others. Right now symptoms are jumping about and I feel emotional and tired, yet I am optimistic this is all part of the TMS healing process and I can see light at the end of this llllooooonnnngggg tunnel at last. Now time for a little meditation.