I totally agree Stock Trader, and forest
in the past before I learned mindfulness and if I got angry
I really didn't know what to do but suppress it and wind up hurting
all this chatter would begin after the suppression then id have anxiety
to pile on top of the anxiety and around and around it'd go till
I just stopped thinking about it then id get so stressed id have to get a bottle of wine
in the past I would have never thought it was trying to tell me something
now I know it was wanting me to get a grip and learn calmness and relaxation
up till the age of 39 with my personality type T, I don't think I ever looked at anger
as a bad thing and really its not, but when you don't know how to work with it- it is
I had to take up for myself and the best way was through arguments which only made things worse
or through letting my super ego beat the day lights outta me, like ok ok im never going to do that again I would promise myself
then goodist is as goodist do and id fall right back into the same trap again like an endless loop
then it was go ahead and turn the other cheek , the forgiveness for the event I was angry about was a mystery most of the time
it was like most of America, were programmed thinking bad , stressful, hidden, surpressed anger is good
we will get over it was the adage - I never did till I learned mindfulness and awareness
now I know anger is telling me all sorts of things and I listen, do what im supposed to do and get on with my life
I have 3 uncles that died with heart attacks, it was like getting angry was a style of manship for them
it was also a voice crying out to slow it down and get a grip on things
they didn't have the wisdom we have now like here at the site, I really don't know if they'd wanted it
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with me even though I said id forgiven there was always that extra clause coming- ( but I wont forget)
I thank god I know now, ill have lots of years to make things right with my mind and body
I sure do feel good since I learned mindfulness and awareness,
an awesome antidote for the good life