Finished the program. I am not pain free but feel better. Butt pain and sciatica. The insight I gained is good. Journaling and simply understanding better calms the fear. I am currently reading SteveO. I no longer fear the pain but must admit being pissed off at it because I am not working. I am self employed. I work plumbing and the spasms, well you get it, not good. I am going on holidays for 1 week and have decided to not make any decisions until I come back. I do plan on seeing a therapist because I sense hidden anger. I thought I knew why and with whom I was angry , but apparently if you are consciously angry then that's not the source. It's hard when you love that person and just want to tell them off. I may be in left field. There is some success because it has forced me to evaluate many things, and actually now I am in the process of potentially changing carreers. I have not been evaluated by tms doc or had mri. so I am a little on the fence and I know I need to work on that. Having said that , I have read so many stories of success from people way more in pain than me that tells me I'm ok. FEAR is half the battle in my opinion. I no longer fear it, I just fu...n hate it back. Well that's it , life goes on. In plumbing we say , shit goes down,smell goes up and payday is Thursday.