So, I've had some real success using TMS techniques over the past two years. My pain is in my feet and it started in 2001 and gradually worsened to where it was unbearable by 2010-2013. Anyway, my improvement was VERY slow going, but gradually it did improve. In November, I had a pretty significant situation where I was able to walk through Disney World for three days without a wheelchair. We walked 20,000 steps per day. I really felt it was a huge success and while the pain wasn't 100% gone and the walking/standing at Disney, wasn't pain-free, it was a huge improvement. I had always told my TMS dr in chicago that I would speak on his patient success panel when/if I was pain-free. I've been delaying telling him about my successes for fear that admitting to these successes, could cause TMS to put me in my place and ramp up the pain again. Two days ago, I finally told my doctor about my success at Disney in November and let him the know I'd be ready to speak on his panel. I even told him that I feared by sharing this success that perhaps my pain would increase just to spite me. But I said that have the awareness that this could happen, I should be able to quickly combat it and stop it, if it tries to go that route. The very next day, I decided to take my daughter to a museum. This is an activity that in the past I would have avoided at all costs. But I was excited to go because I felt I was nearly cured and would be able to sail through the museum at least 90% pain-free. But no such luck. We were there only 2 hours and I had only done about 2,000 steps (I have a Fitbit which has really shown me how much I do actually do on a daily basis and to be happy about what I do!) when my feet started to really hurt. I was discouraged but tried to tell myself it was just the TMS testing me and that I don't have to be fearful of this and that I'm not going to accept this pain right now. Well, it just kept on hurting and getting worse and worse. I did the whole day with small breaks here and there, but I was frustrated. It makes me question everything...will it ever let me fully be pain-free? I even question if there is something medically wrong with me again. C'mon, I thought I was past that. Should I just accept that even after 2 years and with my big break through, it's going to be 2 steps forward and one step back? I end up thinking that maybe this is as good as it gets. I've come so far and I should just be grateful that I'm walking at all.