I have been on this journey about 4 weeks and I have read about 4 books on the subject and have been journaling every few days. Progress has been very good as I have been walking 4 miles a day and feeling much better. I work at home and my productivity has really increased, so I have a good way of quantifying my abilites. Last night I woke up from a dream that really didnt mean much to me, but my back was aching alot. I was angry. I tried to talk my way through the pain, but nothing seem to help. I then started getting a little anxious as my analytical mind tried to figure out why the pain now. The more I analysed, the more anxious I got. Oh, also yesterday I decided I would start playing golf again after a taking a year off. The last time I played I hit too many balls on the driving range (I really did hit for a long time) and that started a bad downward spiral into more and more pain. Not saying it was the cause, as I have been struggling for 23 years. So my question is what do I do about it? Just keep reading, journaling, etc.? When I get this way I feel like there is something inside my mind that needs to be discovered. I realize that my entire life (am 65), I have always avoided how situations affected me and have taken the high road (the good perfect in me). I feel like I have denied me for so many years. I assume the path to health is to get in touch with the feelings that I suppressed all these years? Any help would be appreciated. Thanks.