This topic could be posted somewhere but I thought I would throw it out there and see if anyone else has gone through this in their journey. I am reading, investigating, celebrating, journaling and working through the pain by trying to act as normal as I can. And as I read the posts; I see the anger, anxiety and tears and I almost shed a few of my own tears as I read everyone's story and struggle.. But I can't cry right now. My heart is too hardened. I have put a shield around my heart and I can't break the huge glacier of ice that I've built up over the last 5 years. I feel dead inside except that I am feeling 'hope' in this recovery. I know if I could cry and allow all my emotions out and let go of all the hurt I will heal faster.(I do cry tears from the physical pain??) I almost started to cry this morning but I don't want to feel anymore emotional pain. Has anyone ever experienced this. I am a 'crier' by nature because I have a very sensitive personality......but right now....I'm a 'hardened ole' gal!! I am intellectualizing everything!! Help!!