Hi! First I have to mention that i'm a french canadian. English is my second language and i'm doing the best I can. Im in pain for almost every minute of every days for about 2 years now. It began with my lower back for few days and would go away on its own. On day I sat in my car and a I felt a pull in my pelvic region. I felt a sharp pain and because it was very close of my private parts, I was very scared, I began the process of self diagnosing (very bad idea) with internet. I was sure I had pudendal neuralgia. I was obsessed by forums on pudendal neuralgia and i was reading it every half hour or so. After reading someone on a forum telling people about TMS, i recognize myself. I am a very anxious person and I want to be like by everybody. In other words I call myself the YES MAN, I can't say no to anyone in fear of being dislike. Also, when I was doing some research and read new symptom i was feeling it a few days after. I know I have TMS for one particular reason. Sometimes I dont have pain. Most of the time is when I do something I really enjoy. For exemple, I went Hiking with my wife on a huge mountain(not very huge but it was for me) two weeks ago. https://www.google.ca/maps/place/Mo...0x4ccf79fdd25c1a4d:0x2144f0df9f980f58!5m1!1e4 I had no pain what so ever. After the hiking done i thought that i pushed myself to hard and boom pain flares up. The same thing happens when i play Xbox with my wife's brother. No pain at all. I know that my brain is protecting my from something and I will find it. So for now on I would no longer focusing on what I can't do because of my pain. I will no longer fear the future. No longer searching the internet for PT, surgeons, miracle drugs ETC... Now I take time for myself. Question To Ponder What would a life without TMS mean to you? A life without TMS for me is a simple life. No anxious thought about pain. Be the husband my wife deserves. Sports, gardening, travels, roadtrips. No more dark tought. I don't need fancy stuff and lots of money. Just my wife, family and no TMS. Again sorry for my bad english. Again im hard with myself. I think that you guys will understand my text and if not just ask and i will try to re-do it.