Mr Hip Guy
Beloved Grand Eagle
Sorry to hear that, but you're only 6 weeks post surgery and you have to keep reminding yourself of that.
I see a lot of fear in your post - you'll need to calm your central nervous system down before you can make rational decisions on this. Try to figure out what you can do to gain some composure - it's different for everyone but find something that works for you. Then see how you feel about it at that point. You're in a good place here and there is excellent support - but ultimately it is on each of us to find some balance and what works for us.
I see a lot of fear in your post - you'll need to calm your central nervous system down before you can make rational decisions on this. Try to figure out what you can do to gain some composure - it's different for everyone but find something that works for you. Then see how you feel about it at that point. You're in a good place here and there is excellent support - but ultimately it is on each of us to find some balance and what works for us.