Hi all - I'm new here and just starting journaling. I'm pretty overwhelmed with emotions (I'm not often a very emotional person.) It's distracting me from work I ought to do. I was wondering whether telling you stuff might help somehow. I hope that's ok. So, the story is: Sometime in my teens there was a formal dinner at my parents'. I was pretty ill that day but was at the dinner table. I think I may have been in bed but came out to have dinner (I don't really remember the details.) Anyway, at some point (probably between courses) I was too exhausted to continue sitting. I think I asked whether it would be okay for me to lie down on the sofa for a bit. And my father completely exploded. I was super shocked and confused as his reaction came out of the blue. I think I had asked politely; and it any case, reacting like that was embarrassing him in front of his dinner guests. It was a really unexpected response. Like, if he found anything in what I said objectionable, he could for example calmly have asked my to go lie in my bed instead. Dunno what happened there (this is twenty years later); there must have been other stresses in his life. I still get shocked and tearful when I think of that incident though. (If you are curious as to how it panned out - my mom defended me and I did rest on the sofa for a while.) I just don't know what to make of it. And I don't know how to process it. I clearly haven't all these years. Can you help me somehow? Any thoughts? Thank you. My parents are still alive but very much not good to talk to about emotional things.