KevinB
Well known member
Hey all,
I completed the SEP back in July and was free of all pain. I had some things crop up the past month, namely sudden death of a dear friend, work stress, first baby on the way, etc., coupled with obsessively fearing a relapse, and wouldn't you know it - a day at the gym doing a lift I had been doing for months, with the same weight, and pop, felt the back "tweak". It slowly crept in over the next few hours, and I was SOOOO scared, so it got worse. So for the past 9 days i've been in pain when walking and standing, and sleeping, but have been doing the work I learned here.
Nevertheless, it was suggested to me to do the program again, there must be some new stuff, and possibly some things that I hadn't addressed last time. I have some fears about it not working this time, but I certainly have nothing to lose, I gained A LOT from it last time. I feel a little disappointed in myself because I just finished it four months ago.....but that's the inner bully in me, so I'm trying to tell it to back off, that it doesn't matter that I did it before, that this is a GOOD thing.
Anyhow, because the symptoms are virtually identical to my last episode, and I have none of the "emergency" symptoms (loss of bowl/bladder control, etc.), nor did I have tumors, infections, cracks in spine from last MRI (8 months ago), nor any symptoms of infection (no fever or swelling), I want to accept and believe 100% that it is NOT structural..... but I do feel a small amount of doubt still, not sure why, and it makes me think that perhaps I didn't fully 100% accept it last time.... so, I'm doing the work. Rewatching that 20/20 segment and reading the success story for today is very helpful. I'm already feeling some relief, and a reduction of fear/anxiety.
So here's to another round of the SEP. I'm actually looking forward to it, in a way; I like structure and this is a good way to work on myself daily.
Thanks for reading.
Kevin
I completed the SEP back in July and was free of all pain. I had some things crop up the past month, namely sudden death of a dear friend, work stress, first baby on the way, etc., coupled with obsessively fearing a relapse, and wouldn't you know it - a day at the gym doing a lift I had been doing for months, with the same weight, and pop, felt the back "tweak". It slowly crept in over the next few hours, and I was SOOOO scared, so it got worse. So for the past 9 days i've been in pain when walking and standing, and sleeping, but have been doing the work I learned here.
Nevertheless, it was suggested to me to do the program again, there must be some new stuff, and possibly some things that I hadn't addressed last time. I have some fears about it not working this time, but I certainly have nothing to lose, I gained A LOT from it last time. I feel a little disappointed in myself because I just finished it four months ago.....but that's the inner bully in me, so I'm trying to tell it to back off, that it doesn't matter that I did it before, that this is a GOOD thing.
Anyhow, because the symptoms are virtually identical to my last episode, and I have none of the "emergency" symptoms (loss of bowl/bladder control, etc.), nor did I have tumors, infections, cracks in spine from last MRI (8 months ago), nor any symptoms of infection (no fever or swelling), I want to accept and believe 100% that it is NOT structural..... but I do feel a small amount of doubt still, not sure why, and it makes me think that perhaps I didn't fully 100% accept it last time.... so, I'm doing the work. Rewatching that 20/20 segment and reading the success story for today is very helpful. I'm already feeling some relief, and a reduction of fear/anxiety.
So here's to another round of the SEP. I'm actually looking forward to it, in a way; I like structure and this is a good way to work on myself daily.
Thanks for reading.
Kevin
