I have been struggling with TMS since I was 19 years old – 20 years. Most of that time I have been PAIN FREE. It first started when I was in college. 1995 Fall – developed carpel tunnel syndrome. Dealt with this on and off for 1 year. I did not know it was TMS. 1996 Spring – Lower back pain. Dealt with this for 4 months. I did not know it was TMS. Lots of occasions through college I dealt with TMS. I did not know what I was dealing with. Probably too many to remember! 2002 – Upper back pain. I received an MRI that showed I didn’t have anything wrong. It was then in a desperate search that I found “Mind Over Back Pain” by John Sarno. Halfway through the book my pain vanished. I remember it vividly. It was in April right after the time change. I went outside and helped my dad in the garden. The truth can set you free. But……..the TMS kept coming back…… I would always do the same thing. Use comforting modalities like massage, exercise, ice, heat, chiropractic and read my pain away…….. 2016: February: upper back and neck pain – read the pain away but this time it required some journaling. NOW: I was diagnosed with peronial tendonitis in my right foot, then capsulitus of the 5th metatarsal, and additionally Morton’s Neuroma. I can’t walk of the foot without an orthopedic boot. I’ve relistened to The Divided Mind and Healing Back Pain but the pain is not going away. I’m discouraged that I have to deal with “escalated therapy” but I hope that by going through this 30 day program I will gain more control over my TMS. It is also discouraging that I tried to locate a psychiatrist, psychoanalyst or health care provider that treats TMS but it seems like no one does outside of LA or NYC! Dang! I think it is tougher to accept this diagnosis of TMS because it found a new area of my body to prey on!!!!! I’ve never had TMS in my foot before. I’ve had aches and pains – but never this. But part of me thinks it must be TMS because just writing this makes me tense, gives me a headache, and causes my shoulders to tighten as well as experience anxiety symptoms. What would a life without TMS mean to you? I don’t think anyone can really escape TMS pain. It’s part of the human condition. Repressed negative emotions in people like me causes pain because my unconscious thinks that physical pain is better than mental anguish. But – if I can recognize the TMS – and treat it at the root – psychologically – I will be cured physically and also be more healthy mentally.