It has been about a year now since my back first "went out." I had pain before that, but not like this. This was the first time it was bad enough to take over my entire life. I could do nothing but just be in pain. It was about 3 days before I could walk without horrible spasming. I have not truly been out of pain since. I have good days and bad, but that day I learned to be in pain. I subconsciously adopted it and let it become a part of me. Before that, I have always struggled with depression and anxiety. So adding this to the pile really just sucked whatever joy I previously took in life right out of me. Every day, I just survive and that's pretty much it. I have no hopes for my future, I have no plans that excite me. I just want to get through this somehow.